10 months later and referring yet again to the same dick from last year. What a ridiculous circus act this has turned out to be. I don't know:
if I hate the son of a bitch,
hate myself for getting into this emotional quagmire,
how the fuck this all rolled down,
how the fuck to get out of the situation that has been making me ridiculously unhappy for too long
why i am still enamoured of a person so careless, reckless, irressponsible, uncaring and utterly thoughtlesss as to how his actions towards me and to me have caused me extreme emotional pain and turmoil.